dad

my first 12 years with him had past,and he just like a stranger for me.he just home at weekend,and i little bit scared of him.i had 3 big fights when i was younger.first when i was 7 and i kicked my brother.second when i was 10 and i threw a remote tv to my brother.and third when i watering plants and make my brother slipped.i just wonder how could he be on my brother's side??i was pretty sure that it happened because the foolishness of my stupid brother.and i was scared,and i hate weekend when he was home.until he decided to quit his job and try his own bussiness.and i grow as teenager and we had a different prespective.i yelled at him almost everyday.and our relation wasn't really good T.T i hate that time..
well,maybe our best time is when he drove car at lebaran night,and i accompanied him in his left and we talked all the way through malang-surabaya-blitar-malang.and it's about politic.he didn't even ask my daily activities,and i wonder if he knew that i can sing.
but that just a three fights,i didn't count that he has been so nice to me.when he gave me a big winnie the pooh,when he brought me my first watch,when he painted my room with purple that i asked him the day before,when i had my accident and he said "fix your reflect",yes i couldn't count.
and he just says that i am amazing and i just wanna say something that i've been living for 16 years and that words still keep unsaid:LOVE YOU